Busy and sick

well its been a while since I posted anything. I was out of town for a few days and then I've been working and sick and black Friday, thanksgiving, blah blah blah, etc... So I'm back!!! whats new??? I'm so excited for Christmas! got most of my shopping done on Friday, so that's good.

oh, and for those of you wondering I did come home to clean house after my little trip. he did have some help, but still it was clean. and actually he's been helping out quite a bit! which is great! but now i feel like a bitch for complaining... oh well ;)

guys can be gross!

So yeah I'm not a neat freak but I definitely like things clean like most people do (i hope). But guys I notice (most of them anyways) could care less about cleanliness. which I absolutely hate!!! so I rarely do this because I Love and Adore my husband but this is pissing me off and my blog is suppose to be about honesty, so here it is. My husband barely does any house work really the only "chore" that he has to do is take out the garbage... simple right?

so I pulled the upstairs garbage and brought it downstairs by the front door for him to take out which... there you go half the work is done. but wait it stayed there by the door for at least, AT LEAST 5 days!!!! till i got fed up and took it out today myself. and if that wasn't enough yesterday I was detailing the kitchen and we have an area under our kitchen counter where we keep the garbage and recycling which was OVERFLOWING, so again I decided to help him, and also maybe send a clear message that this needs to be taken care of! so i took it all out and placed it in the kitchen floor. guess what folks... next day still there....

lets see how long this stays out or how big it will pile up... and whats worse is I'll be leaving for the weekend with my son while he stays here with our daughter... I'll most likely come home to a huge disaster...

well, theres my pissed off rant for the day! Hope you enjoyed!

Being Fat

So many yummy things surround me this time of year and it really pisses me off! why does this world temp me with such evil things like egg nog, chocolate fudge, holiday cookies, ugh the list goes on!!! Its  like the quote "Theres a skinny girl inside me screaming to come out, but she can easily be sedated by some chocolate" I think I need to come to the point where I just say NO! NO CRAVINGS, GET THE F**K AWAY FROM ME! but then you see its pouty eyes and I just have to give in.

I'm done with being fat, this isn't who I am! I am not Lazy I am not unhealthy. I just need to do this! Come on Leah, you've lost 25lbs so far, just keep going! I can do this, I'm ready to be attractive again to be confidant again, to give my husband what he had 6 years ago! I am woman HEAR ME ROAR!

Addicted

A day of grey

Outside is grey. and I feel like its reflecting how I feel today, not good, not bad. just grey. I know we all have those moments or days but I feel really blah today. I dunno, maybe I didn't have enough coffee or enough sleep, or maybe its because i have to leave for work in 15 minutes. who knows, I just hope things perk up. turn my grey to green, or yellow, something colorful. I want the grey to just go away