Busy and sick

well its been a while since I posted anything. I was out of town for a few days and then I've been working and sick and black Friday, thanksgiving, blah blah blah, etc... So I'm back!!! whats new??? I'm so excited for Christmas! got most of my shopping done on Friday, so that's good.

oh, and for those of you wondering I did come home to clean house after my little trip. he did have some help, but still it was clean. and actually he's been helping out quite a bit! which is great! but now i feel like a bitch for complaining... oh well ;)

guys can be gross!

So yeah I'm not a neat freak but I definitely like things clean like most people do (i hope). But guys I notice (most of them anyways) could care less about cleanliness. which I absolutely hate!!! so I rarely do this because I Love and Adore my husband but this is pissing me off and my blog is suppose to be about honesty, so here it is. My husband barely does any house work really the only "chore" that he has to do is take out the garbage... simple right?

so I pulled the upstairs garbage and brought it downstairs by the front door for him to take out which... there you go half the work is done. but wait it stayed there by the door for at least, AT LEAST 5 days!!!! till i got fed up and took it out today myself. and if that wasn't enough yesterday I was detailing the kitchen and we have an area under our kitchen counter where we keep the garbage and recycling which was OVERFLOWING, so again I decided to help him, and also maybe send a clear message that this needs to be taken care of! so i took it all out and placed it in the kitchen floor. guess what folks... next day still there....

lets see how long this stays out or how big it will pile up... and whats worse is I'll be leaving for the weekend with my son while he stays here with our daughter... I'll most likely come home to a huge disaster...

well, theres my pissed off rant for the day! Hope you enjoyed!

Being Fat

So many yummy things surround me this time of year and it really pisses me off! why does this world temp me with such evil things like egg nog, chocolate fudge, holiday cookies, ugh the list goes on!!! Its  like the quote "Theres a skinny girl inside me screaming to come out, but she can easily be sedated by some chocolate" I think I need to come to the point where I just say NO! NO CRAVINGS, GET THE F**K AWAY FROM ME! but then you see its pouty eyes and I just have to give in.

I'm done with being fat, this isn't who I am! I am not Lazy I am not unhealthy. I just need to do this! Come on Leah, you've lost 25lbs so far, just keep going! I can do this, I'm ready to be attractive again to be confidant again, to give my husband what he had 6 years ago! I am woman HEAR ME ROAR!

Addicted

A day of grey

Outside is grey. and I feel like its reflecting how I feel today, not good, not bad. just grey. I know we all have those moments or days but I feel really blah today. I dunno, maybe I didn't have enough coffee or enough sleep, or maybe its because i have to leave for work in 15 minutes. who knows, I just hope things perk up. turn my grey to green, or yellow, something colorful. I want the grey to just go away

I ate to much...

Sooooooo, I ate like a piggy tonight! I barely ate anything in the morning and just GORGED on all kinds of things later in the day... why? ugh now i feel gross and fat. but, whatever, its my own damn fault. and you know what, I'm not gonna beat myself up over it. its done and over with I cant take it back... wait, I can stick my finger down my throat! HAHA, just kidding guys, I would never do that! 

I think this is good for me, whats done is done and there's no going back. before I would just say screw it I'm just gonna give up and eat horrible the whole week. Its a thought process now, I chose to eat that stuff and now I'm going to choose to fix it. yes, I use my brain WHOO HOO! alright time for some Star Trek... PEACE!

Muffin Tops

My little Rant on Muffin Tops...

Losing

I feel like my face looks bloated in this video. now im not sure if its my Camera or if thats actually how fat my face looks, either way im gonna lose all this weight, so it will be gone eventually!!!

Just cant get enough

Nothing about me is consistent, with that said neither is my sleep. for some reason I can sleep great for a couple months falling asleep within the first 10 minutes of laying down. then the next couple months it can take up to 3 hours just to fall asleep!

Zach says its my own fault, that I just need to learn how to shut off my brain and fall asleep... but how can I? there's so many stresses that I deal with day to day that there's no way I can just "shut down". believe me, I wish I could! maybe its easier for men, their brains are so simple they can just push the off button. did I cross the line? eh, whatever. i hope i come out of this phase soon, I would really like to get some decent sleep.

Vlogging? Sure, why not...

Making things awkward is always fun!

Anyone who actually knows me knows that i am an "awkward" person. with that said I like making other people feel awkward, if there is a moment in the conversation that i can squeeze in an awkward silence I will, or an awkward face twitch, I'll do it. Heck if i could train my eye to go lazy, that would be the cherry on top!!!

the reason for the awkwardness? well first off you never need a reason, thats what makes it awkward! and second, the office! yes the TV show "The Office" I am in love with the office, *confession moment* I watch an episode or two a day, sad? yes true! yes

oh, and you wont receive an awkward moment from me if i dont like you... just keep that in mind!

Look Whos Blogging now!

HI EVERYONE!

      So, I've never blogged before, this is all new to me... so bare with me it may take a while to find my nitch, or whatever. OK so this blogging idea came from my Husband when i was taking pictures of pumpkin seeds, he asked what i was doing and he suggested I blog about this stuff! I was hesitant at first but later realized that hey, that might not be such a bad Idea! no one wants to read my posts 24/7 on facebook, but they might on a blog... cause thats all you do.

SOOO here it is I will post about anything and EVERYTHING my exciting *sarcasm* life brings on a daily basis I hope you all enjoy!!!